我开始相信,那些自感的折磨和不幸,假如你复原走出来了,你会发现,它们其实是来自上帝的礼物,经过了包装。

感谢各种力量,来自大自然、摸索者、传爱者、文学、艺术的。

送给一些挣扎着,挣扎过,或者生活在阳光中的人。

2019.5.21

No haunter is out there, only our own demons.

那里没有幽魂,有的是我们的心魔

4.26

What and who remain in our life, apart from our own efforts, must also have been selected by the hands of time.

我们生命线上留下的人和物,定是经过时间之手筛选的。

4.25

I lit a candle, then it came a long frightening dream. A message must has been sent to me, but beyond my comprehension.

4.20

月圆夜,有朋友说想死:

三不五时就想死一死,但也没有哪次真的死成了。想死是真的,怕死也是真的,二者并不矛盾。

天生的恐惧有时候也是我们的护法神。


4.12

阴天的小镇,古老的街道,每隔半小时的钟声,安静用心地做出的食物,停靠的自行车,跟着很久不见的老朋友穿梭,似曾相识又有如梦境。

街道上看到了家中也有的两代传下的布猴子;家里挂着的风格极似的爷爷的遗画;眼熟的铜像,朋友做的食物,恰好都是家中宴客时我喜欢做的餐食,印象中不记得曾经跟他一起做过饭。那些在我们生活进入另一阶段前的日子,遥远又熟悉。

3.9 

when we are in a dark place, we tend to feel that we have been buried. perhaps we've been planted. bloom.

1.12

When darkness meets the light, all there is just being, reflections, and currents from which some may survive some may hide.

光与阴交界处是存有,倒影,和能携人浮起亦能将之淹没的波浪。

1.10

他人用心地爱你时,不要觉得理所当然。可以的话,同样待之。不能够的话,就感谢他们的光与暖。

 

我说,黑暗中不能独处的恐惧,应该是童年时受了惊吓,部分魂留在了原处。那个受惊的女小孩,也许还在原地颤抖,伤痛,我要找到她,带她离开那里。她好了,我才能好。

 

2018. 12. 27

When things were rough, I used to think that I might have chosen a wrong path. Now I know that it's the path that's meant to be. It will be greener & brighter. #2018

 

12.05

离拉萨数百里的荒山群里,尚未见峡谷时,方圆数里都是这样的,看似没有宜耕地,植被稀疏的山脉里,山顶偶尔还是看见了建筑群。这里一定有一种强大正面的东西,让人选址停留。

灵魂入世前假如真会从上空一窥而选址,这又何尝不是比高楼林立更吸引人的景象。

10.18

穿梭城市这几天,让我重温了什么是堵车和挤地铁。确实,山里酝酿出的温和算不了什么,人潮中炼出的柔韧才是真功。 #地铁里被挤出的感悟

 

9.17

今天是半月,昨晚广东沿海山竹台风,美国也有龙卷风。

下午刚躺下立即进入一种神奇的状态,宁静,身体的疲惫,尼泊尔香的味道,一种熟悉的夹杂着心痛,共处,和谐,安稳,平衡,幸福的感觉,感觉有个信号在告诉我(不能说是声音,因为是无声的,而又清晰感知到了),如果想找我/我们,你现在知道怎样做。总而言之,很神奇又很温馨的感觉,又似乎同时能感觉到忧伤,也许是跨时空的。

 

chants for peace, Lama Gyurme & Jean-Philippe

 

7.3

This chanting music has deeply touched me, only now, after years of listening to it, did I think of looking up who's behind this beautiful light. And it's been a delight to discover: Lama Gyurme, the director of the Kagyu Dzong Temple in Paris and the Vajradhara Ling center in Normandy and Jean-Philippe, a French pianist who approaches the world via sound instead of eye sight.

 

2018.6.2

假如超度是通过向导将你无畏无执地指引到另一方,纪念的追悼会大概是相似的历程。从身边的人眼里看自己的一生,另一个角度,不一样的记忆点,穿插的时间线,让他们知道,这一段生命图已圆满。一生已圆满,继续前行。

 

Today I suddenly came to the realization that, a memorial service probably is in some way similar to a Bardo ritual. Stories, experience which crossed one's life time were shared by other people - they came to learn about another life picture  through others' eyes, and learned that this life is completed. If Bardo ritual is for the soul to be guided to the other side by a guru, they probably share some similarities. This life has completed, please go ahead.

德格路上,甘孜州

Journey to Dege 

Dali - Shangarila - Xiangcheng - Xinlong - Deger - Tzongsa Monastery - Yaqing Acha town - Luhuo - Kangding - Chengdu

行程: 大理-香格里拉-乡城-理塘-新龙-德格-宗萨寺-亚青寺阿察镇-炉霍-康定-成都

 

自驾,大众五座轿车

our tool

beetabonk driving in Ganze Tibetan region

 

外籍人不能自驾进藏,所以从滇藏,川藏到甘孜进入德格。从大理到德格其实穿越西藏是最短路途。德格古城到宗萨寺和白玉一段都是走在川藏边界上,一江之隔。

 

每日驾车时间控制在地图时间五小时之内,因为beetabonk一人驾车,白天一般需要补工作,中途会停车休息,逛村落,争取天黑之前到下一家住宿。

 

8月19日起两周,雨季末,早晚会有雨,白天晴天,洗好的衣服大多时候是透过车窗晒干的。

Aug. 19-31 monsoon is almost over, there was rain in the morning and over night, during the day we got mostly sun.

 

海拔从两千的大理出发,最高处约五千。以前居北京时到海拔三千的夏河有明显的高反,现在居住在大理五年之后,一路上没有明显高反症状,易喘和疲劳还是会有。

Altitude: 2000 - 5000m

 

去年从Shambhala出版社找到蒋杨秋吉罗卓的生平传,藏文夹杂的英文版,边看边翻术语解释,各人各世之间的联系,做着比治疗教育更详细的笔记时我就知道会来看看他生活的地方。

Reading《The Life and Times of Jamyang Khyentse Chökyi Lodrö》published by Shambhala Publications, I knew that I'd be here.

Son of the nature

 

If someone with speech & language therapy experience, or just the passion and skill to play and communicate with child with delayed speech, boys games, rock climbing, horse riding etc., in English, interested in spending one month in China/Yunnan, I am offering room & board Dali home-stay for exchange.

Roughly ten hours per week, easy work :)

  

If I was ever assigned a mission, it was to help you locate and connect to the things that brighten up your eyes.

 

2010年,小双鱼出生在北京,18个月的时候在内蒙草原他追着羊群满山跑,什么语言都不愿意运用的他,边追边喊,sheep, shee, shee-eep!

2012年我决定让他在大自然中成长; 2013年我们搬到了云南大理。

 

耶鲁大学儿童研究中心把沙利文定义为高功能自闭症儿童,搬回美国,接受治疗,能帮助他去学会日常中不能做的事情,那是教授的建议。融入群体,当然重要,训练我们不会置忘。然而作为妈妈,最重要的大概是帮助他去寻找和发展可以让他眼睛发亮的事情,而这些,不是治疗师可以给我答案的。教授说,我尊重你的意见。

 

July 2017

The mysteries of CAPD  神奇的中枢听觉处理障碍

When we were taking a canoe down the stream, we saw crocodiles in the water, peacocks in the trees, I pointed to Sullivan, can you see the peacocks? His eyes were fixed in the air and said, deer. The guide smiled and said, there's no deer here. One minute down the stream, we suddenly saw a small group of deer in the bushes, a king with 4 female deer. Some time later we were looking at kingfishers, he said, orangutan. The one minute later, we saw a red monkey on the tree. When we were reaching the bank, he said, tiger!

今天我忽然在想,沙利文是否能听到动物存在的声音。划船时看见鳄鱼,孔雀,向导给我们指孔雀的位置,说,看见了吗?我说,沙利文,你看见孔雀了吗?他说,deer. 我说,不是鹿,是孔雀,就在那。向导也笑笑,没有鹿。船往前划了一分钟左右,果真看见草丛里有几头鹿,其中一个是雄壮的公鹿,大大的角,他旁边还有几只小鹿。再往前划时看见翠鸟,沙利文说,orangutan猩猩. 一分钟后我们看见了红色的猴子;快上岸时,他说,tiger. 还好,我们往大象养殖中心走了。

 

 

 

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