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《灵魂永生》

第二章
“我们的确有与你们所谓的情感相等的东西,虽然这些不是你们所知的爱、恨或愤怒。对你们的‘情感’最恰当的描述是,那是与‘内在感官(inner senses)’有关的远较伟大的心理事件与经验,在三度空间里的实质化”。


第三章
“如果广义地说物质实相是个幻相的话,它是个由更大的实相所引起的幻相。这幻相自身有其目的和意义”。

十四章
“你全部的本体只有一部分‘现在’为你所熟悉。因此,当你思考一个至高的存在体‘supreme being’这个问题时,你便会想象一个人格,具有你自己所拥有的那些能力,并且特别强调你所推崇的那些特质。这个想象出来的上帝于是随着时代而改变,反映出人对他自己想法的改变”。

《生命的不可思议》

第一章

这位信奉天主教的留德西医(朱仲刚大夫)最初和乐老师一习一 拳为的只是强身,没想到练了几年后某日在上海的电车里突然看见挤得像沙丁鱼的人群缝隙中,居然夹杂着五颜六色呈气体状的怪东西。他发现如果有人到站下车腾出一些空间,这些气体就会变得胖一点,如果空间很窄,它们就变成了狭长形。下车时他突然有一股想要呕吐的感觉,不久就大病了一场,从此随时可以看见另外一个次元的存有。他把这事儿告诉了老师,老师要他不必担忧,也无须执著,这只是陰陽眼开启的现象。后来朱医生不但开了陰陽眼,同时还能看见人一体 的一精一微组织、内脏和灵光等等,身边的人昵称他为“X 光眼”。

他说此生他见过三个人的灵光令他印象最深,一是他的乐师母(竟然不是乐老师),二是田耕莘主教(耕莘文教院的创办人),三是他留学德国期间在巴黎的地下铁偶然瞥见的一名女瑜伽士。他说师母的光能照射到屋外,田主教的光弥漫着整间教堂,而那名坐在地上看起来像游民的女瑜伽士,灵光竟然照亮了整个地下铁的通道。树诚问他灵光的强度是否与功夫的高下有关,他的回答是:无关。他说灵光的强弱取决于心量的大小,而心量的大小又和精神修为有关,执意练功之人心量反倒不见得宽广。

第四章

在原始社会里演员是以萨满或巫的形式展现的,那时他的功能乃是充当神与人之间的媒介。他是最早期的歌者、智者、舞者、文化传递者、占卜者、医者和人生顾问。他透过宗教仪式来治疗和转移人们心中的恐惧及困惑,甚至直接成为无形能量的管道,展现出神力;譬如日本能剧、印尼及西藏的仪式舞蹈,都存在着这样的神秘性。换句话说,在原始社会里演员曾经拥有过神权以及崇高的地位,东西方皆是如此。但自从西方正统基督教会兴起后,巫的传统就被逐渐贬为异端,人神中介的角色开始由牧师取而代之,演员的崇高地位从此沦为娱乐他人的艺匠。在东方世界里,演员也逐渐沦为戏子、俳优,以及卖婬、无情和伪善的象征。

十一章

美是令人不安的。我省思起自己年轻时被人称羡的美,也曾经令无数的男人和女人不安过。人心真是一个无解的谜,那比较之心总是以措手不及的速度涌现,当这些夹杂着恐惧和嫉妒的念头在运转时,身体、情绪和心灵都会开始紧缩,这份紧缩对我而言就是一种危机。我渴望的是完全放松之后的逍遥自在,我知道Robert也有相同的渴望。后来我们发现,自我紧缩便是我们之间最重要的课题之一,而这也是全人类在解脱上的最大障碍。

《西藏生死之书》

《人生五章》

Chap. 1 我走上街, 人行道上有一個深洞, 我掉了下去。 我迷失了......我絕望了。 這不是我的錯, 費了好大的勁才爬出來。
Chap. 2 我走上同一條街。 人行道上有一個深洞, 我假裝沒看到, 還是掉了進去。 我不能相信我居然會掉在同樣的地方。 但這不是我的錯, 還是花了很長的時間才爬出來。
Chap. 3 我走上同一條街。 人行道上有一個深洞, 我看到它在那兒, 但還是掉了進去...... 這是一種習氣。 我的眼睛張開著, 我知道我在那兒。 這是我的錯。 我立刻爬了出來。
Chap. 4 我走上同一條街, 人行道上有一個深洞, 我繞道而過。
Chap. 5 我走上另一條街。
这是我理解的轮回与涅槃的关系

三章六节

无常的讯息: 死亡之中有什么希望

空 如果一切都是无常的,那么一切就是我们所谓的「空」,也就是说,一切都没有任何持久、稳定和本自具足的存在;一切事物,如果能够看见它们的真正关系,必然不是各自独立的,而是相互依存的。佛陀把宇宙比喻成一个广大的网,由无数各式各样的明珠所织成,每一颗明珠都有无数的面向。每一颗明珠本身都反映出网上的其他明珠,事实上,每一颗明珠都含有其他明珠的影子。 就以海浪为例吧!从某一方面看,海浪似乎具有明显独立的个体,有始有终,有生有死。从另一方面看,海浪本身并不是真的存在,它只不过是水的行为而已,「空」无任何个体,而是「充满」着水。所以,当你真正思考海浪时,你将发现它是由风和水暂时形成的,依存于一组不断在改变的条件。你也将发现每一波浪之间都有关联。 当你认真观察,就可以发现万物本身并不真实存在,这种非独立存在,我们称之为「空」。
我们以为拥有的思想,才华,灵感,独立个性,都是空。克里斯那穆提所讲的”二手货“吧。

六章3 业

业 Karma, 因果的自然律

八章自然中阴

佛教提到有六种存在界(称为六道):天、阿修罗、人、畜生、饿鬼、地狱。每一道都是六种主要烦恼的结果:骄傲、嫉妒、欲望、愚痴、贪婪、嗔恨。

《巨婴国》

我的理解是,最低的境界和最高的境界常常看起来是很像的。 婴儿最初的状态没有分化、没有边界、没有你我之分,觉得一切都是合一的。开悟的人据说就是这种境界,觉得你就是我,我就是你,我就是万物,万物都是我,我心就是世界,世界就是我心。这是很好的东西,但如果你处于混沌无明状态,也有类似感觉,这是非常可怕的,会给自己和周围人带来巨大问题。

蒋勋《论苏轼》

今天如果我们对父亲的死亡、母亲的死亡、祖父母的死亡,或者妻子的死亡作描述,我觉得这个东西是最难写的,难写的原因是因为在伦理的社会架构当中,我们会受到这类文章的意义的限制。凡是受到限制、被认为应该怎样写的文章,常常都是最不容易写好的文章。我记得小时候写作文,老师常常会给一个题目叫“母爱”,我觉得大概小朋友都写不好。母爱这个东西要写好,大概要写到像苏轼写的“尘满面,鬓如霜”的程度。你不到那个状态,你不太知道母爱是什么东西,因为在某一段年龄当中,在母爱可能还是让你厌烦的东西的时候,你怎么去写母爱呢?所以我的意思式说,我读《江城子》的时候,我觉得苏轼在生命经验当中的一种自然性,是他最惊人的东西。可是对这一点我们常常不会发现,因为你读的时候,觉得简直是容易得不得了,可是这个容易刚好是他的难处。所以我们在读“十年生死两茫茫。不思量,自难忘,千里孤坟,无处话凄凉。纵使相逢应不识,尘满面,鬓如霜”时,要特别注意“尘满面,鬓出霜”,这是一个非常具有意象的描述,就是自己老了,这些年憔悴漂泊,到处下放,这样一副面容即使见到了,你也不会认出我了。我觉得这种意向、这种描述,表现的是一种非常深、又非常特殊的情感。我们在前面讲过,不少宋词当中表现男女情感的内容,但那大多还是与歌妓之间的情感,它们或是感伤的,或者有一点浪漫的,可是与妻子的情感常常不见得是浪漫,它有着共同生活过的内容,因此里面有非常深沉的东西。

我们会发现很少有人在文学创作里写妻子会写得那么好。写歌妓可以写得比较好,可是对妻子的情感难写,因为它太平实了。我的意思是说其实难写的原因,是因为它不是每一天要去弄得很花俏的东西,夫妻的情感不是情人的情感那么花俏的,有时候连浪漫都没有,只是共同生活过的一个平实的东西。我们再从这个角度去看《江城子》,会有非常深的感触,他只是在写偶然梦到亡妻的记忆。“夜来幽梦忽还乡,小轩窗,正梳妆”,其中“小轩窗,正梳妆”是对妻子出嫁的回忆,这里边有一种少女的美,因为王弗嫁到他们家十六岁,所以大概在化妆的时候一个新郎会偷看自己妻子的美。其实这里面有一点让我们觉得很有趣,就是前面的“尘满面,鬓如霜”是一个中年男子的那种苍凉跟憔悴,可是忽然变成“小轩窗,正梳妆”的时候是一个少女的美和俏皮,这其实是对比,就是自己衰老了,可是亡者在他的记忆里是一个永远的新娘,一个出嫁的新娘。


我们看到宋代文人描述的男女之情,几乎都是与歌妓之间的情感,夫妻的情感很少成为文学主题的,因为会受到伦理层面的约束。在中国的男性社会当中非常奇特,女子被男子娶回来,生子,管家,而丈夫则常常在外面有他自己另外的空间,男人的情感空间跟他的婚姻空间,常常会分离开来。可是在这个《江城子》当中,你会感觉到苏轼试图把情感空间和婚姻空间做某种程度的结合。他是从真情上去描述的:“十年生死两茫茫,不思量,自难忘。千里孤坟无处话凄凉。纵使相逢应不识,尘满面,鬓如霜。夜来幽梦忽还乡,小轩窗,正梳妆。相顾无言,惟有泪千行。料得年年肠断处,明月夜,短松冈。”

Emotions - Osho

You have met a friend: of course, it appears that they joy is coming from your friend, from seeing him. That is not the actual case. The joy is always within you. The friend has just become a situation. The friend has helped it to come out, has helped you to see that it is there.

The same with everything, with anger, with sadness, with misery, with happiness, with everything. It is so. Others are only situations in which things that are hidden in you are expressed. They are not causes; they are not causing something in you. Whatsoever is happening, is happening to YOU. It has always been there.

Whenever you are alone, there is nobody to provoke your anger, nobody to create an opportunity where you can become sad, nobody to bring your own false faces before you. You are lone: anger does not arise. Not that anger has disappeared – simply the situation for anger is not there. You are full of anger, but nobody is there to insult you, to hurt you.

Watch anger in all its phases, be alert to it so it does not catch you unawares; remain watchful, seeing every step of the anger. And you will be surprised: that as awareness about the ways of anger grows, the anger starts evaporating.

《Many Lives, Many Masters》

“I have been to different planes at different times. Each one is a level of higher consciousness. What plane we go to depends upon how far we’ve progressed…”she was silent again, I asked her what lessons she had to learn in order to progressed. She answered immediately.

“That we must share our knowledge with other people. That we all have abilities far beyond what we use. Some of us find this out sooner than others. That you should check your vices before you come to this point. If you do not, you carry them over with you to another life. Only we can ride ourselves…of the bad habits that we accumulate when we are in a physical state. The Masters cannot do that for us. If you choose to fight and not to ride yourself, then you will carry them over into another life. And only when you decide that you are strong enough to master the external problems, then you will no longer have them in your next life.

“We also must learn not to just go to those people whose vibrations are the same as ours. It is normal to feel drawn to somebody who is on the same level that you are. But this is wrong. You must also go to those people whose vibrations are wrong…with yours. This is the importance…in helping…these people.

“We are given intuitive powers we should follow and not try to resist. Those who resist will meet with danger. We are not sent back from each plane with equal powers. Some of us possess powers greater than others, because they have been accrued from other times. Thus people are not all created equal. But eventually we will reach a point where we will all be equal.”

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Patience and timing…everything comes when it must come. A life cannot be rushed, cannot be worked on a schedule as so many people want it to be. We must accept what comes to us at a given time, and not ask for more. But life is endless, so we never die; we were never really born. We just pass through different phases. There is no end. Humans have many dimensions. But time is not as we see time, but rather in lessons that are learned.

Everything will be clear to you in time. But you must have a chance to digest the knowledge that we have given to you already.

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“Why do we come back to learn? Why can’t we learn as spirits?”
“Those are different levels of learning, and we must learn some of them in the flesh. We must feel the pain. When you’re a spirit you feel no pain. It is a period of renewal. Your soul is being renewed. When you’re in physical state in the flesh, you can feel pain; you can hurt. In spiritual form you do not feel. There is only happiness, a sense of well-being. But it’s a renewal period for…us. The interaction between people in the spiritual form is different. When you are in physical state…you can experience relationships.”

Mutant Message Down Under

Born empty handed,
Die empty handed.
I witnessed life at its fullest, Empty handed.

According to the tribe, a gift is only a gift when you give someone what the person wants. It is not a gift if you give what you want them to have. A gift has no attachment. It is given unconditionally. The persons receiving it have the right to do anything with the gift: use it, destroy it, give it away, whatever. It is theirs without condition, and the giver expects nothing in return. If it doesn’t fit that criteria, it is not a gift.

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